Wednesday, March 20, 2019

Connecticut's First Gay Kid Governor; Two Gay High School Athletes Attend Prom Together; Kendle's Fire by Ryan Field

Connecticut's First Gay Kid Governor

Here's an uplifting story about an 11 year old named Ella Briggs who's being referred to as Connecticut's first gay kid Governor. 

I love this story because I see straight people all the time who don't realize that we know we're gay as kids. I knew it at 3 years old. Of course like most other gay kids I didn't understand it, and I knew I couldn't do anything about it. You just don't say anything. Thankfully, kids like Ella Briggs are changing all this. 

The exuberant, poised fifth grader was sworn in on Jan. 18, at a ceremony at the Old State House. There were plenty of dignitaries on hand that day to praise her, including the newly-elected, grown-up governor Ned Lamont and U.S. Rep. Jahana Hayes, along with dozens of Ella’s peers.

You can read the rest, here. It talks about some of the obstacles she's faced, too. Of course many straight people are also still under the misguided impression that it's all so easy now for gay people. Read the article and you'll see how untrue that really is.  



Two Gay High School Athletes Attend Prom Together

Here's another story about two fantastic young guys that's uplifting for many of us. And that's because gay people were never allowed to take other gay people to their proms. We either didn't go at all, or we faked it and took a non-gay person and we pretended to be straight. Thankfully, again, this is changing as well.

The following day, I received a text message from a local photographer who witnessed the exchange. He introduced himself as Eric McKinley and expressed his gratitude about our courage. He explained that he was a part of the LGBTQ+ community and that he wished he would have exhibited the same courage in high school. He offered to take our prom photos for free.

Here's a link to this one. There are photos, and it's very nicely written. 






A Novel Examining Masculinity


Amazon Reader Review:

"This is GREAT story!! It's wonderful in its exploration of sexuality and masculinity. The story is well done and beautifully done. The story flows beautifully and the characters are wonderfully written."

Kendle's Fire by [Field, Ryan] 



Even though Kendle is an openly gay ex-Marine, he's been questioning his masculinity all of his life. He's always been what people expect a man to be, in spite of the fact that he's never been completely comfortable living up to these expectations.

He also has a few secrets. The kind of secrets a man can only talk about with the most intimate people in his life. One of those people is his best friend and part time lover, Dale. And their relationship is not without a few unusual quirks and ironies either, especially when it comes to the way Kendle explains his relationship with Dale to his own parents. 


After a string of bad career decisions and awkward mistakes, it's not until Kendle meets a young guy named Walter that his life begins to come together. It's a journey filled with as much joy as heartbreak, with a few bittersweet twists in between. As Kendle opens himself up to new possibilities, he finds himself in the midst of life altering changes that leave him devastated. And there's a point where he's not sure he can get through any of it.

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Presidential Primary Debate Just On LGBT Issues; Calvin Klein's Ex Boy Toy Nick Gruber Arrested; Kendle's Fire by Ryan Field

Presidential Primary Debate Just On LGBT Issues

A lot of the details about this are still sketchy, but it looks as though there will be some kind of LGBT forum where the Democratic candidates will appear. The focus will be on LGBT issues.

The Human Rights Campaign (HRC) will be hosting a presidential forum on October 10, 2019, at UCLA. That is, just before National Coming Out Day.

Here's the link. I'll post more as I see it made public. Apparently, the HRC did a forum in 2004, but I don't remember that. I'm sure it didn't get much mainstream media attention, and at the time the Internet was hit or miss with anything LGBT related. 


Calvin Klein's Ex Boy Toy Arrested

I don't follow this sort of thing regularly, so I didn't even know Calvin Klein had an ex boy toy named Nick Gruber...who used to be a pornster. 

According to this story, Klein's ex got into a little trouble last Friday and was arrested for assaulting some guy with a frying pan. It's sounds awfully messy and violent, too. They guy who was attacked had broken bones in his back and a severed ear. 

You can read the whole mess, here. Gruber is out on bail right now, and there are photos of Gruber at the link. 




A Novel Examining Masculinity


Amazon Reader Review:

"This is GREAT story!! It's wonderful in its exploration of sexuality and masculinity. The story is well done and beautifully done. The story flows beautifully and the characters are wonderfully written."

Kendle's Fire by [Field, Ryan] 



Even though Kendle is an openly gay ex-Marine, he's been questioning his masculinity all of his life. He's always been what people expect a man to be, in spite of the fact that he's never been completely comfortable living up to these expectations.

He also has a few secrets. The kind of secrets a man can only talk about with the most intimate people in his life. One of those people is his best friend and part time lover, Dale. And their relationship is not without a few unusual quirks and ironies either, especially when it comes to the way Kendle explains his relationship with Dale to his own parents. 


After a string of bad career decisions and awkward mistakes, it's not until Kendle meets a young guy named Walter that his life begins to come together. It's a journey filled with as much joy as heartbreak, with a few bittersweet twists in between. As Kendle opens himself up to new possibilities, he finds himself in the midst of life altering changes that leave him devastated. And there's a point where he's not sure he can get through any of it.












Sunday, March 17, 2019

A Gay Film Critic Gets It All Wrong; On Men Wearing Gowns; Lesbians Being Killed In Chechnya; 'Kendle's Fire': A Novel Examining Masculinity

A Gay Film Critic Gets It All Wrong

I'm not going into a long explanation with this one. The only reason I'm linking to it is to show how wrong critics can be sometimes. He skims over several classic gay films that he thinks make us cringe now. But nothing could be further from the truth. And you don't need me to dispute this. All you have to do is read the comments at the end of the article to see what readers have to say.

One reader said this:

You shouldn’t be damning these films. They show what being gay was like in the seventies. It was no picnic.

I recently watched The Boys In the Band and I thought it was wonderful, especially the way it depicted gay life back in a time before I was born. I like knowing these things about my culture, and about the history of my culture. And in most cases, these films are all we have. 

You can read more, here. This is could be titled CriticFail



On Men Wearing Gowns

Here's a much more thoughtful piece about masculinity and how men are perceived. It's a topic that more people seem to be weighing in on nowadays, too. I thought Billy Porter looked great in that black gown, and that's as far as I took it. But many people had a lot more to say. I saw some of the tweets that night and they were brutal...many were written with panic.  

“Masculine”: an ever-changing word in an ever-changing world. As evolution and revolution challenge centuries of oppressive macho aspiration, some of us finally are redefining what it takes to be a man.

Here's a link to more. 

There's a link below to my novel, Kendle's Fire, where the entire story revolves around a young Marine who begins to question his own masculinity in some very interesting ways. I've had a few reviews for which I'm very thankful, and, thanks to indie publishing I was allowed to write a book like this through Ryan Field Press. No publisher ever would have allowed me to do this, not one...not even those who claim to be the most progressive. It wasn't an easy book to write, but I have no regrets or misgivings. 



Lesbians Being Killed In Chechnya

Things don't seem to be improving in Chechnya. Here's a story that's coming directly from a lesbian woman who escaped from the gay purge in Chechnya, and she's making a few interesting points I haven't read anywhere else. 

‘Also in 2018, we began to receive reports of girls being detained by the police on suspicion of homosexuality. According to reports from Chechnya, there are girls among those detained in December to January.’

This one even gets into how gay women are being treated by their own families, and how what's happening to lesbians over there is being virtually ignored.  

Here's the link. It's much more detailed. 



A Novel Examining Masculinity


Amazon Reader Review:

"This is GREAT story!! It's wonderful in its exploration of sexuality and masculinity. The story is well done and beautifully done. The story flows beautifully and the characters are wonderfully written."

Kendle's Fire by [Field, Ryan] 



Even though Kendle is an openly gay ex-Marine, he's been questioning his masculinity all of his life. He's always been what people expect a man to be, in spite of the fact that he's never been completely comfortable living up to these expectations.

He also has a few secrets. The kind of secrets a man can only talk about with the most intimate people in his life. One of those people is his best friend and part time lover, Dale. And their relationship is not without a few unusual quirks and ironies either, especially when it comes to the way Kendle explains his relationship with Dale to his own parents. 


After a string of bad career decisions and awkward mistakes, it's not until Kendle meets a young guy named Walter that his life begins to come together. It's a journey filled with as much joy as heartbreak, with a few bittersweet twists in between. As Kendle opens himself up to new possibilities, he finds himself in the midst of life altering changes that leave him devastated. And there's a point where he's not sure he can get through any of it.




No More PrEP For THIS Gay Man; Russia Cancels Youth Festival Over LGBT Rights; Catholic Priest Force-Kissed Andrew Rannells; Sleepless In San Francisco by Ryan Field

No More PrEP For THIS Gay Man

Here's a story about a guy who was taking truvada, but then decided to stop for his own personal, subjective reasons. It's an opinion piece, not anything based on science or fact.

January 10, 2019. The day I quit. No more Truvada, no more little blue pills. Now, a few weeks later, I begin to understand why I did something none of us is supposed to do. Go off my prevention meds. We were going to put the whole world on Truvada, right?

Here's the rest. It's a long account of his personal feelings. And you can't fault anyone for that. 

  

Russia Cancels Youth Festival Over LGBT Rights

On the global front, here's the latest from Russia.

Due to run this weekend, local authorities cancelled the event over concerns one of the plays in the festival promoted a ‘LGBTI agenda’.

Here's more. The play is titled, Blue and Pink, and those colors supposedly represent gay and lesbian Russians (I never knew that). I would imagine this cancellation is directly related to the gay propaganda law from 2013, where Vladimir Putin basically made it illegal to promote anything with an LGBT agenda, which could be anything that is not considered part of 'traditional family values.' 



Catholic Priest Force-Kissed Andrew Rannells

I have to disclose that I was raised Catholic, went to 12 years of parochial school, and was never once sexually abused (or approached in an untoward way) by a Catholic priest. And I knew my fair share of Catholic priests growing up.

Apparently, this was not the case with Andrew Rannells. The same priest cornered him twice!! 

Andrew Rannells has bravely opened up about how, in the year before his graduation, a Catholic priest twice forced open-mouthed kisses on him.

You can read the entire story, here.  




Fresh Release

Sleepless In San Francisco



Sleepless in San Francisco by [Field, Ryan ]


Reader Reviews:

 I read a lot of Ryan's books, but really loved this one. The main character reminded me of someone... read it and see.

A PG Rated Gay Romance






Ramon Canyon by [Field, Ryan]



Blissfully Yours



Kendle's Fire

A PG Rated Gay Romance 






Not All Gay Books Have Sex

In Their Prime by Ryan Field

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Saturday, March 16, 2019

Hiring LGBT Employees and Discrimination In Virginia; Openly Gay Pete Buttigieg Presidential Candidate; Tumblr Traffic Tumbles; Uncertainty by Ryan Field

Hiring LGBT Employees and Discrimination In Virginia

An investigation done by a civil rights organization in Virginia discovered high levels of discrimination when hiring LGBT people. They released a report based on civil rights testing that compares the experiences of straight applicants to gay and lesbian applicants.

 As part of its testing regimen, the ERC conducted 10 matched-pair tests at companies in Virginia, where a straight applicant and a gay or lesbian applicant with identical or similar demographic information and nearly identical qualifications both applied for the same position.

What's really interesting is how so many of us don't even realize the discrimination is going on. I actually see that kind of thing often on social media. Many LGBTQ people are being discriminated against and they don't even realize it's happening to them. We all need to be a little more aware of all this.

Here's the link. 


Openly Gay Pete Buttigieg Presidential Candidate

Once again, the mainstream media seems to be ignoring the gay presidential candidate, Pete Buttigieg, which isn't something new. Last time they ignored Fred Karger. These are the straight people in the media and in Hollywood who will tell you how much they support you so they can feel good about themselves, but then turn their backs when it comes to the most important kind of support...showing, not telling. 

But at least Pete Buttigieg is getting some coverage.

The Navy veteran with a hard-to-pronounce name, from a city small enough to fit every resident in a college football stadium, seems to be winning the argument at the moment. Weeks after declaring his interest in challenging President Trump, he has become, if not exactly well-known, a subject of interest for many Democratic voters, buoyed by a breakout performance at a CNN town hall on March 10.

Here's the entire piece, with photos.  I've heard him a couple of times and I think he actually sounds promising, and I'm not saying that just because he's openly gay. He's very level-headed and I hope he keeps moving forward.


Tumblr Traffic Tumbles

I don't think this will come as a shock to anyone. Tumblr has experienced a significant drop in traffic. Supposedly, this is all a direct result of Tumblr's strong censorship policy with regard to what they consider, "adult content." That's really what censorship is: a personal opinion that can, and often does, vary.

The site now prohibits “photos, videos, or GIFs that show real-life human genitals or female-presenting nipples.” Traffic fell from 521 million monthly page views in December to 437 million in January. February fared no better, with traffic plummeting to 370 million views.

I haven't been there since the new policies started, and I have no intention to return there any time soon. And I didn't even have any adult content up, so it didn't personally affect me. My Tumblr has always been G rated. I just won't support a web site that practices that kind of censorship. Good bye, Tumblr.

Here's a link to more.




Amazon Reader Reviews: "Duty or Love? That is the hard choice that Gus's surviving dad, Henry, is trying to decide. This story revolves around a beautiful family that's hit some hard times. You hope beyond hope alongside with Gus that Henry will choose love, no matter what." 



Uncertainty by [Field, Ryan]

When Gus Baldwin realizes that his gay dad is serious about marrying a much older man for safety and security instead of love, he concocts a plot that he hopes will change his dad's mind. Even though his other dad has been dead for over a year, Gus wants his surviving dad to find love and happiness someday with a new husband. 

However, their financial situation is about as bad as it gets and they're on the brink of losing their grand old Victorian home, and everything about their perfect lives is threatened. So Gus winds up putting his own marriage on hold with the guy he's been in love with since high school. It's so bad he's even thinking of quitting college to help support his dad and his younger brother just so his dad won't have to marry the older man. 

After Gus convinces his dad to take a road trip in their vintage 1950s station wagon to their getaway cabin in the mountains, along with his younger brother, his future husband, and their nineteen year old dog named Special, their lives change in ways none of them ever anticipated. And even though the future is still uncertain in some respects, they discover a few things about themselves on this trip they never could have predicted.



Friday, March 15, 2019

New Monthly Injection To Treat HIV; FREE Gay Fiction Excerpt; Brand New Release: "The Rescuer" by Ryan Field

New Monthly Injection To Treat HIV

For anyone over the age of 35, to see something like this is mind blowing. Back in the 90s when HIV drugs were just starting to surface, and HIV as an infectious disease was transitioning from being considered a death sentence to a chronic illness, I never dreamed that one day there would be a monthly injection.

The news came at an HIV research conference in Seattle in early March. ViiV Healthcare announced that an extended release injection works just as well as a once-a-day pill in neutralizing the virus. The study also found that the participants preferred a once a month injection to the routine of taking a pill every day.

One of the things we hear almost constantly from doctors who treat people with HIV is that some people taking HIV meds don't take the pills regularly. They forget...or whatever. This injection sounds a lot more promising. 

Here's the link. 


FREE Gay Fiction Excerpt: The Rescuer by Ryan Field 

I'm finishing up a new book that should be released by the end of this month titled, The Rescuer. It's a little self-indulgent because I love animals and I'm a huge supporter of rescue, but I tried to balance the story with other aspects of gay life, too. In other words, it's not just a story about a young gay man who rescues animals. It's about a young gay man who needs rescuing himself sometimes, too. In any event, here's a blurb, and there's an excerpt below that. 

After Keith's boyfriend, Chet, turns down Keith's ultra-romantic marriage proposal on the beach in Provincetown, MA, Keith is left devastated and confused about what to do next. He begins to question everything, including his career as the director of a unique animal rescue foundation that's partly SPCA and partly pet hotel.

Keith loves working at the SPCA more than life itself, and he loves the animals as much as the people in his life, but he knows his job just isn't good enough to convince Chet to marry him. It might be time for him to join the prosperous family business, become an executive like his brother, and give up on his simple dream of re-homing and rescuing animals. 

He winds up finding love and strength in some of the most unlikely places, one of which is with a shy, quirky 3-legged dog named Misty who teaches him the importance of trust and tenacity. Even though he's surrounded by all the things he loves most, from a mischievous pet monkey to a skunk who thinks she's a cat, Keith knows he'll never win Chet back unless he tries working at the family business. There's only one thing he's overlooked, and when he finally figures this out he realizes what's most important to him in this world.     

Excerpt:

The café where Dick took him was only a few miles away from the adult sex shop and movie theater. It was one of those tiny places tucked away in a more industrial section of town that Keith rarely frequented. The neighborhood was considered, “up and coming,” which meant a mix of older residential row homes that had been built after World War II for factory workers, and old brick buildings that once housed factories that had produced everything from paper bags to underwear. Keith was familiar with the neighborhood because his family's company had bought, renovated, and sold a few of the old buildings as professional office complexes. He knew Richardson Homes was in the middle of a deal right now to acquire a large red brick structure that had been a sock factory at one time so they could turn it into trendy open concept lofts, with exposed brick walls, for wealthy baby boomers who were scaling back and looking for lifestyle changes.
They parked in front of the café on the street, almost directly next to the café's entrance, and they both unfolded from the car at the same time. When they reached the entrance Dick opened the door for him and waited for him to enter first without even thinking twice about it. Keith suspected he did this because he'd been trained to always take control and open doors for women. Even though Keith didn't expect this treatment from a man, he found it both amusing and endearing. In other words, Dick didn't have to open doors for him that way. He wasn't a woman and he didn't expect men to do things like that. And yet, a small part of him couldn't deny that he liked the fact that Dick had good old fashioned manners.
The café was smaller than most fast food restaurants and they crossed to a table in the back next to an exposed brick wall. The tables and chairs were a combination of aged wood and gun metal gray steel, and they had that French industrial look. He took a deep breath and the entire place smelled of coffee and bread. The floor was that highly polished stained concrete Keith had always admired, and prints on the walls were simple affairs with clean white mats and black frames. It was the kind of place where nothing was actually seen, and it all worked together to create a simple, tasteful setting. When Dick pulled a chair out for him, he sat down and said, "I love this place. I can't believe I've never been here before."
Dick sat down across from him and said, "Thank you. I'm glad you like it. I own it."
"You own it?" There didn't seem to be an end to his surprises.
He shrugged. "It started out as a little investment and hobby for my ex-wife, but she wound up getting bored and I didn't want to shut it down. It actually makes money, and I have the employees to think about. I didn't want to take jobs away from them, and they get health insurance, so I decided to keep it open and hire a manager. This entire neighborhood is up and coming and I think there's a lot of potential."
"I agree," Keith said. "I think it's wonderful. My brother is in negotiations right now to buy a building not far from here and turn it into lofts. I might buy one of the lofts myself. I like it here. And I really love this café."
"I thought you would like it," Dick said. "That's why I brought you here."
"I'm curious about a few things," Keith said. "Is this like a date?"
He laughed. "I hadn't thought about that. But I guess you could call it a date."
"But you told me you identify as straight. Straight guys don't date other guys."
"I do identify as straight," Dick said. "I'm dating several different women right now. I just like you, is all. Do I have to actually identify as gay just to take you out for something to eat?"
"No, I guess not. I never really thought about that either. I like you, too." He didn't say this aloud, but he had to admit that he liked the thought of dating a straight guy, and he wasn't even sure why.
One of the waiters walked up to the table and handed them menus. Dick knew exactly what he wanted and he obviously didn't have to read the menu, and Keith ordered a large salad with grilled chicken. He'd never been a big eater and he usually ate just enough to survive. Ever since he'd broken up with Chet and he started working out at the gym, he enjoyed his extra-lean body, he felt better than ever, and he wanted to remain that way.
After they ordered two coffees, the waiter left and Keith looked at Dick and said, "I'm curious about something else. What happened back at the theater? I thought we were having fun, and then you became so serious and aggressive. Did you see the look on that poor guy's face when you told him to leave? I thought he was going to cry. And he really was cute in a dad sort of way."
He thought for a moment, as if he was trying to gather his thoughts so he'd say the right thing. "With all due respect, I had this feeling you were getting a little carried away and I started to worry. I thought it was my duty to get you out of there before you did something you might regret. You have to know when to leave in places like that."
Keith laughed. "Well that's no secret. I was getting carried away. Hell, I felt like a little gay piggy, and I liked it. I never explored that side of me before. But in total honesty, I only felt that way because I knew you were there. I never would have done anything like that alone. I felt safe with you. And if you hadn't been there, I would have gone home alone."
"I know that," Dick said. "And that's the reason I got you out of there. That guy I told to leave is a creep. I've seen him there before. I'm a lot more familiar with places like that than you are and I felt obligated to make sure nothing happened to you. I know you're on the PrEP regimen, but HIV isn't the only thing you can catch in places like that. And I wasn't going to let anything happen to you. Frankly, I don't care if you're mad at me and I'm not going to apologize for doing what I still think was the right thing to do. Sometimes you just have to trust people."
"I don't want you to apologize," Keith said. "I'm glad we left. I’m enjoying this café  a lot more."
"You are? I thought you were mad at me."
"Give me some credit. That wasn't the real me back there. I don't know who that was. I would rather be here right now with you than anywhere else."
"You would?"
This time Keith thought for a moment before he spoke. He wanted to say the right thing without offending him. "First, thank you for taking control that way. I'm glad we left. As I've gotten older I've started to realize that I like being directed sometimes. I know that might sound odd to most people, but not to me. That doesn't make me less capable of doing things on my own, and it doesn't interfere with my own identity. It only means that sometimes I need a man like you to take control so I don't have to do it. I prefer that, so don't stop doing it. Whenever you’re with me, you have the control."
"Does this mean we can be regular fuck buddies?"
The waiter arrived with their coffee and Keith sent Dick a wink. "That sounds like a good plan to me. In fact, I think it might be just what we both need right now."
The waiter said, "Your food will be out in a few minutes."
Keith smiled and said, "Thank you."
As the waiter turned to leave, Dick smiled at Keith and said, "I totally agree with you."
At that moment, they both knew the future was uncertain, and that they might never see each other again. It didn’t seem to bother Dick, and Keith had to deal with issues in his own life anyway. When their food arrived Dick started telling Keith about his businesses. Keith didn't ask him any questions and he wasn't fishing for any information that night. Dick simply volunteered all this information, as if he hadn't talked to anyone intimately in a long time. He said he didn't own just one party rental company. He owned six rental companies that were located all over the state. Besides owning the café, he was heavily invested in a used luxury car dealership that focused on selling high end imports online all over the US. He also owned a summer home in a popular resort town, a condo in a well-known ski resort, and a small plane he knew how to operate himself so he could avoid the hassle of airports and commercial flights for business trips. Both vacation homes were mostly rental properties that he rarely used himself. And even though his ex-wife and kids lived in a huge home in the best neighborhood in town, he rented a small apartment for himself not far from where the café was located.
When he finished talking about himself, Keith mentioned a few things about his own life so that Dick wouldn't think he was keeping anything from him. There wasn't much to tell. A lot of this information was already out there and Dick knew about it anyway. He already knew Keith was the director of an SPCA that his family owned a large company that designed and built custom homes, and that Keith was openly gay. But there was one part of Keith's life he never discussed with anyone, and he didn't talk about it with Dick that night either. It was something so personal to him, and to vital to his existence he rarely revealed it to anyone. And in this case it didn't seem to matter anyway because Dick wasn't gay and they had no future together as a couple.
Keith was still curious about something and he figured while they were talking he might as well ask. "I'm still not totally sure I understand. Do you consider yourself bisexual?"
"No," Dick said. "I've thought about that a lot over the years and I don't identify as a bisexual. I identify as straight. It's not like I want to have sex with all men. It's only certain men. I guess you could say I'm sexually fluid sometimes, but when I see my life in general I'm straight, and I’m happy being straight. I love women."
"Does your ex-wife know this? Do other people know you sleep with men sometimes?" Keith had known he was gay from the age of three years old. He'd never been attracted to women, and he’d never had sex with a woman.
"No," he said. "It's not something I talk about openly because I don't think it's anyone's business. My wife and I aren't divorced because I wanted to have sex with men on occasion. I never cheated once the entire time we were married, not with men or women. She's the one who wanted the divorce, not me. I fought it all the way until I finally realized she would never change her mind. I keep my sex life private just like any straight person or gay person. People know you're gay but you don't go around talking about the people you have sex with in detail. It's the same with me. People know I'm straight, but they don't know everything I do in bed. And if I meet a really great guy every once in a while, or if I take him out on a date to a café, it's no one's business but mine, and of course yours."
"I actually understand that," Keith said. "It must have been hard on you, the divorce. I’m sorry you had to go through that."
He shrugged and looked up at the ceiling. "Nothing in my life has ever been harder. It’s worse than a death. But I don't want to talk about that. It's getting late and I should drive you back to your car."
Keith smiled and said, "It is getting late. But I had a great time tonight."
A few minutes later when they were in the car and heading back to where Keith had left his Jeep, he asked, "Why me? I'm just curious. You're a hot guy and you could be with any gay guy you want."
Dick reached across the seat and squeezed his leg. "I knew the minute I saw you I wanted you. I said to myself, 'you have to get some of that.' I know that sounds terrible but that’s what I thought. And let's face it you didn't put up much of a fight. I thought I'd have to work a lot harder to get into your pants. Hell, all I had to do was wink and you were naked."
 He knew he was joking and he laughed. "If I'd known that I would have made you beg."
"No you wouldn't. That's not your style. You're too honest, too classy, and you’re much too good for that kind of cheesy behavior. You’re too real."
"I guess I can't argue with that." It was a nice compliment.
When they pulled up to Keith's Jeep a few minutes later and Keith opened the door to get out, Dick asked, "Can I follow you home?"
"You want to spend the night, don't you?"
"If it's okay with you? I hate going home alone."
He reached for Dick's hand and brought his palm to his lips. He kissed his palm and said, "It's okay with me. Even if we are just friends, and even if we never go to bed again after this, I'd like waking up with you one more time. You make me feel safe, and I haven't felt that way for a long time. I just want one promise from you. We both know this will never go anywhere, but I want to remain friends no matter what."

"It’s a deal. You’ll never get rid of me. I'll follow you home."




Amazon Reader Reviews: "Duty or Love? That is the hard choice that Gus's surviving dad, Henry, is trying to decide. This story revolves around a beautiful family that's hit some hard times. You hope beyond hope alongside with Gus that Henry will choose love, no matter what." 



Uncertainty by [Field, Ryan]

When Gus Baldwin realizes that his gay dad is serious about marrying a much older man for safety and security instead of love, he concocts a plot that he hopes will change his dad's mind. Even though his other dad has been dead for over a year, Gus wants his surviving dad to find love and happiness someday with a new husband. 

However, their financial situation is about as bad as it gets and they're on the brink of losing their grand old Victorian home, and everything about their perfect lives is threatened. So Gus winds up putting his own marriage on hold with the guy he's been in love with since high school. It's so bad he's even thinking of quitting college to help support his dad and his younger brother just so his dad won't have to marry the older man. 

After Gus convinces his dad to take a road trip in their vintage 1950s station wagon to their getaway cabin in the mountains, along with his younger brother, his future husband, and their nineteen year old dog named Special, their lives change in ways none of them ever anticipated. And even though the future is still uncertain in some respects, they discover a few things about themselves on this trip they never could have predicted.